Every day, I wake up and do my best to be the best father, loving husband, incredible employee and amazing man I can be.
But sometimes I fall short. Short on energy, patience, answers, compassion or time.
Recently, my daily struggle with lassitude seems more like a war. And after the daily introspection I do and whatever i think for making myself feel better is eclipsed by the thought that maybe I am not doing a good job as a father.
I am not saying that I am doing a wrong job but sometime it’s difficult to handle even the smallest of issues of my children.
From handling the work to personal life all the day my nervous system is an overload.
At the end of the day I ask myself a question, how do I overcome this and simply love my children? Love them in a way that makes me forget about any worries and think that they always have my support no matter what.
And you know what what made this noise fade away? On a day my children told me what I actually mean to them. It wasn’t a wrapped gift which has a shirt or a tie or a wallet but it was the best gift they could have given me. It was their feelings- because the best of gifts cannot be wrapped.
They thanked me for the first toy I got them and the first pocket money they received from me. They thanked me how I was always the savior for them when their mom used to say “No”. They thanked me for every time I came to their annual function leaving aside my work. They thanked me for every scolding i gave them which helped them make a better person now. My daughter said: “It’s because of you that today, I can call myself a strong and independent woman. From pushing me on a swing as a child to teaching me how to drive a car, you have always kept my happiness and independence before everything else.” I coudn’t help but let those happy tears shed from my eyes. The bundle of joy they gave cannot be compared to anything in the world.
I hugged them with great affection and realised how good i was at my job. No matter how old they grow up, they will always be my little kids. Until this i couldn’t realise that they have grown up so much.
Thank you for being my children
And remember, I am always with you…